Monday, April 12, 2010

In Case of Suicide Call...

Sometimes I get deep into my business day and things are chugging along like normal, when something out of the blue makes me stop and wonder.

So I received this call from a counselor at the Veteran's Administration and she leaves a message for me to return her call in reference to a mutual client.

When I call I get her answering machine which says she is a suicide prevention counselor and is unavailable at this time. She's very nice, calm and clear on her message as she tells all potential callers, "if this is an emergency, hang up and call 911," "if you are thinking of harming yourself call the suicide prevention hot line at..."

And I can't help but wonder, if I were thinking of harming or killing myself and I got a recording, what would I do? Would I snap out of my darkness temporarily, look around for a pen and a piece of paper to write down the number, then patiently check that I wrote down the number correctly before hanging up?

The only times I got that depressed, I never thought to call a suicide prevention hot line. I didn't want to talk to anyone. I was very quiet inside myself about my intentions and was very comfortable with the thought of ending it all.

Now I'm sure not everybody's experience was the same as mine, but I couldn't help thinking, if I had been the type to call for help and got that recording, I think I would have hung up before the number was even recited and went about my business. It was an odd feeling listening to a message that so easily could have applied to me years ago.

3 comments:

tshsmom said...

I've never been in that position, but I can't imagine anyone, in that state of mind, responding to a recording.

OldOldLady Of The Hills said...

I think if I was in that state and called that number and got a recording--it would piss me off so much and hurt me so much, too---And I think I would end it all right then and there.

Larena said...

when my brother was going thru his suicidal time we told him to call the help lines Mom & I had already talked to them they could not call him he had to reach out for them and did not. had he called and got a machine I am sure he would have continued with the plan or even got madder and takin it to the street.
a veteran will most likely have PTSD and getting a machine is not going to do them a good turn, I think it would be better to get a busy signal.

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