Monday, August 24, 2015


Hi!  How are you doing?  Are you settling in?  Does it feel like home?  Do you miss your old house?  Have you found a job yet?  Have you started any home improvement projects yet?

Those are the most frequent questions I get asked.  I answer, fine, yes, not yet, YES!, no, we put up a new fence for the dog.  

I'm not quite sure what my truth is to those questions.

I made my favorite homemade bread recipe to make the house smell like home, but this place is so huge, that I couldn't smell a thing.  I searched for places to go berry picking, to put blueberries in the freezer for winter.  But I got too busy to get to the fields, so I purchased berries from the farmer's market, froze some, made jam out of the rest.  

Same type of canning jars, same kitchen towel, same motions, but no sense of accomplishment.

I made my favorite quiche for dinner.  There was only the slight smell of garlic in the house.  The scents dispersed too quickly.

I have been working on an on-line class for my old employer, so in addition to house stuff, I am staying very busy.  Still, I haven't found additional work.  That may take some time.  I might finally get to work on a novel, or some other work that has been rattling in my head for years.  Now that I might have the luxury to explore such an endeavor, it feels like I'm standing in front of a great abyss, unsure how to cross it.  It's terrifying and exciting all at once.

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

Getting there . . .

For the last five weeks, here's what I've been doing:  week 1, moving, unpacking; 

week 2, trip to Maine; Week 3, unpack and go see my sister; 

week 4 both M's brothers and their families here, then go to Albany for a 50th wedding anniversary for M's aunt and uncle, week 5, M's parents come for a visit, clean and put bedrooms back together after previous visitors, work on on-line class, spend time with M's folks. 

Min is still planning her Spring wedding.  Here's a shot of her and L, her fiance.  She's in an arm stand, like a hand stand, and his legs are straight up against her.  I wish she would have sent me the whole picture, so you could see the balancing act, but this is what I got.  

Min is continuing her acrobatics training and modeling.  Here's a picture of her lighted hool-a-hoop act.


So it might not sound like much, but I've been very busy, and out of town way too much.  The house is now all "put together," meaning all the furniture is set up, pictures hung, stuff in cupboards.  I still have two small boxes in the kitchen to get to, and the entire basement is full of boxes for the office and craft room that need to be taken care of, plus the garage is piled high with moving boxes that need to be cut and flattened so they can be stored in the basement for any future move.  So that's a very brief description of all I've been doing. Needless to say, I've been working every spare moment, so I hope you'll forgive me for my blogging absence.  One good thing, we are having a lovely cool summer and gorgeous sunsets here at the new house.

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Wedding Dress

Pat, here's a first look of Min in her wedding dress.  It needs some minor alterations, but here it is!

Little observations

My day consists of unpacking, furniture arranging, decorating, cleaning, running errands, and checking Facebook frequently to see what my friends and kids are up to, so I don't feel so disconnected from the people who mean so much to me.  It's a weird feeling, being older and starting over.  Moving was so much easier mentally and physically when I was younger.  I had the illusion of immortality when I was younger.  I didn't think when I moved, "this may be the last time I see this person."  This time though, I had to acknowledge that was a possibility.  The realization that now that I was gone, friends would find someone else to fill my absence.  That's as it should be, but it felt more like the end of an era when I moved this time.  This moment, these relationships, will never come again.  It's also another phase for me as a parent.  My kids gave me a good trial run when they both left the country to travel to other places.  It made me realize in a very real sense, they were their own people, living their own lives, that no longer included touching base with me on a daily basis.  Now that I have moved away, I have to look at their daily lives from a distance, see what they're doing, who they're spending time with, and what experiences they're having that is making them the people they will become.

Min is still doing circus training, only local now.  She models for spending money on occasion while also working on her wedding plans.  I love this child's eyes!  

B is still living the carefree life of an unencumbered, single, twenty-something, staying up late, playing video games, hanging out with his buddies.  I'm still waiting for him to grow up.  ;-). I love his sense of humor and his quick mind.  

I miss them both.  I miss my friends, but I'm very busy trying to get the house in order so I can focus on the on-line class I'm doing for the university I left behind, and trying to find other work here, trying to  find my new normal and get into a new routine.  I'm glad we made this move, took this chance, but it is an eye-opener how different moving is when you're older, as opposed to when you're younger.

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Trying to find a new normal

I spent so many weeks de-cluttering, cleaning, packing, organizing, just to be ready for the big move.  Then we get to our new home and I begin unpacking furiously, moving furniture, getting new drivers' licenses, insurance, organizing our new place, only to stop everything abruptly to go on a previously scheduled family vacation.  Now I'm back home, still unpacking, meeting with fence companies, shopping for supplies, random furniture pieces, and I need to find all the cords to our desktop computer so I can finish prepping for an on-line class I'm doing for the Fall, get out a letter of recommendation, and resumes for the continued job hunt.  The dog is back from a two week dog training camp, and I still don't have my head on straight.  Every day I write a list for things that need to be done, work my way through most of the items on the list, then the next morning I start the process all over again.  I want to just sit and do nothing, but I don't know how long I'll have, to get everything organized before I go back to work, so I push through, try to get everything organized and done before the luxury of time is taken away from me.  Here's a quick tranquility break, pictures from our recent trip to Maine, then back to work!

Thursday, June 25, 2015

Future project?

CK, I thought of you when I saw this.